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Tuesday, May 4, 2010 @ Tuesday, May 04, 2010
WARNING!!THIS POST GONNA BE VERY LONG
AND OFFENSIVE TO SOME PPLE!!IF YOU DON'T WISH TO READ IT, PLEASE KINDLY FK OFF~Thank you very much~
Oh~ No point telling me to delete this post~!If you wanna sue me, go ahead~ i'll be waiting, or i rather have my own life.Long time no see my bloggy, time to clear my spider webs..
It's been a month, and tons of problems on my shoulder..
Stupid family qurrel, cold war between me & dad,
divorce matter between mum & dad, all shit links to me,
place all burdens on me.. as if whatever is all my fault.. FK!
Understand more about how my parents think of each other,
or things that happen in the past before giving birth to us.
how selfish-minded, own-statisfied, bastard he was..
saying my mum never give in to the family? FK!
It's like no such thing as "never" give in la..
talked to him nicely in email he say i was defending he's letter..
funny right? is there something wrong if i speak my heart out?
(well, i copy & paste from email. i dun wan pple say i put words into their mouth)
At 1st he still say,
"Tammy wrote a long letter to defend her Dad's letter and explained that she is in a difficult position. She has no one to talk to. She is in a bad mood."[He doesn't try to understand why I wrote the email to him.]
"彬仔 has no father and is longing for a father. He work hard everyday and study night time. He is happy to work hard."
[He compared me with someone worse, well i dun mind. But seriously if he thinks so, i would rather be as poor background & work everyday.. I might even be happier than him, than staying at home everyday.]
When my mum was trying to cool him down & let him knows how both of us feels,
instead of understanding, he scolded my mum..
"让爸爸重重打妈妈一巴掌, 然后叶妈妈不要生气, 才可以知道气量如何.
莫不是爸爸要反过来孝顺女儿才对? 家中有个皇帝女. 要家人关心她.
她却不关心家人. 可惜她爸爸不是皇帝.
爸爸是恶人. 妈妈是个好人, 你们俩人一起生活吧!"
[If you were to receive such email from your own dad, how would you feel?]
[He DID think, only for himself.. I tried to understand him but yet he doesn't and still..]
[he still can say out those words. esp, last sentence. Yes, i rather stay with my mum.]
*Pasted from email* (Edited only the names)xxx -- 要决择找律师楼解决离婚, 还是私下协议?看看那一种有效.
你曾提过离婚要分一半财产, 就法庭上解决.
财产是我多年辛苦赚回来, 养女和养老用的. 希望你不要津贴别的
男人.
我不会再做好丈夫, 以前也不是丈夫. 忘记他吧!
xxx -- 既然这麽多怨气, 和你父亲又沟通不来, 你就靠外人好了.
这样就不会有磨擦. 也不须勉强回香港. 自便了.
我不会再做好爸爸, 以前也不是爸备. 忘记他吧!
Seriously, if you're the one receiving such emails, what will you do?
Saying my mum having 3rd party, which there's no such thing..
Instead the one having 3rd party was him.
I'll only remember the "dad" when i was young.
Nice la, after that no idea why whole family tio brainwash by him..
totally no point of view & follow what he say..
The best part was asking the 3rd party to say sorry to him worx..
And keep comparing me with the 3rd party's son.. Nice right??
Through out SO FUCKING many stupid mails, i DID apologize so fking many times.
and yet some fuckers still say i didn't admit wrong??
"Nobody is Perfect" this phrase is true so typing it is not in wrong right?
From SO MANY EMAILS, I LOVE THIS THE MOST!! Damn agree to it la!!
"Tammy doesn't feel warm in HK. Then she can stay in Singapore."
I'm serious about this, if things really happens on whether are they going to divorce..
I'll stand only at my point of view, not siding anyone regardless who they are..
I can assure if that really happens, I would rather take care of my mum & stay by her side
since both my sister will surely be with him.
Well.. Coming this 2 years is really important to me, I don't want give up my future plan because of my family. Only left 2 years for my dad to give me money to study & after that I'll be on my own to earn money for the future. For whatever difficulties/obstacle that blocks me, even if everyone looks down on me saying i'm a failure to walk this path. I will never give up on my plans since it will affect my future. People might wondering why I know so much, believe it or now.. I saw mistake path in the parallel world. That's why I'll stick to this plan =)
What my plan?
I'm going to take up a diploma course in Shatec Institute.
Diploma in Pastry & Baking (DPB) Spet intake.
Will apply once I get back to SG.
For living in SG in case my dad wants to sell away the house,
I'll find a place, work & pay for the rent if needed.
Since it's quite expensive for the exchange of currency.
Will be working to gain experience & earn money,
use my own money buy tickets to fly back HK when my term break.
After getting the certificate, maybe live in HK for a period of time?
Or plan to go other countries for further studies, included i have stable income =]
work for few years, before settling down for future marriage =)
I'm Really Serious About This.. I just want a simple life will do..
I don't fancy about those trips or high class kind of things..
I won't compare myself to others because I live my own life..
No one owns my life, even Gods won't kill you unless your time is up..
I rather be someone that people look down on, than someone that doesn't have dignity.
Labels: serious matter